In 1996 I accepted Jesus as God's Son and asked for forgiveness of my sins. I asked the Holy Spirit to fill me up and help me be the kind of person I was meant to be. I will never forget that phone call, you see I was saved after whatching a Billy Graham show.
That was 10 years after I first felt God's presense, but I did not feel worthy enough to ask Him in. Growing up I attended church and remember being told you have to be good and worthy for Jesus, but I wasn't told how to receive Jesus. So when I first felt God near me, I pushed away. He didn't give up on me.
Amazingly, He placed people around me that encouraged and helped me see I was worthy. Then one evening when I came home Billy Graham was on T.V. I remember looking at the T.V. and just sitting down to listen, it was then I was ready to accept Jesus. Even though at that point the enemy has lost, he doesn't stop trying to interfere. This is why once you are saved it important to grow spiritually. I was so thirsty for Jesus and wanting to learn as much as I could. He obliged, I joined BSF, went to seminars, read the Bible. I was a young Christian and the enemy tried to keep from fulfilling God's plans, the more I focused on my faith the stronger I grew.
Through lots of prayer, journaling, staying in God's word, listening to Christian music, and focusing on the positives in every situation the Holy Spirit started sharing God's plans for me. I prayed all the time, it kept me close to Him. The TUGS from the Holy Spirit were getting stronger and stronger. When I realized the plans for me included writing and speaking, it scared me a little, that was 2001. Since then I have continued to listen for the TUGS, but I would also let life get in the way of keeping God center and would not always follow the TUGS; this caused me to get off path to His will.
God doesn't give up on you, He just keeping working through the Holy Spirit guiding you with the TUGS. When I finally got back the path and focused my prayer on fulfilling His will and asking Him to pick me up and place be back on the path if I wondered off again that everything started falling into place.